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The new blog layout. Kuroshitsuji fanfic. School.
Yeah, for those of you who visit often, you would have realised that I changed by blog's skin :3


Love the new look. How about you? :D I had to change a lot of HTML stuff, as usual.

My Kuroshitsuji fanfiction is coming okay. Hee hee. I love writing. I love imagining. It's about Sebastian and my character named Louise ♥. Over here.


School work is freaking killing me. 


I have so much things to do. And exam is just the next month. 

OH NO!!!!!







Uh oh uh oh uh oh.
My math is going to be such a problem. There are two math classes in my year.
The extended class, and the core class. The extension is for those who
are better at math than the core kids. So. I managed to get put in the
extension class, but I just barely passed the test -_-;;;


Today's song:

THIS SONG IS SO BEAUTIFUL. IT ALMOST MADE ME CRY. (Almost. I'm
not the type to cry watching a movie or something.)




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Korean Otome game and an interesting blog I found.
I feel so much better now  *_* No more headache!! Only coughs.



Yay!! And by tommorow, I will soon be like this!!!



Haha. Anyways. I found a korean otome game!! It's based on Peter Pan :DD I always liked Peter Pan. One of my favourite childhood stories. And the game is in KOREAN!! Which means I can understand it. It's not out yet though. It was supposed to be out on late 2011, but I think it got delayed. Not sure when it's gonna come out o_o Anyway. All the boys there are all BISHIES. *nosebleeds* It's kinda weird to see Captain Hook that good-looking *sweats*

The art is really pretty :3 You should check it out.

Main site: www.wendyneverland.com     <--- I think this doesn't work in firefox though. Try others.

Team blog: http://wendynever.blog.me/


It's in Korean though. To know more about the characters and stuff go here.

I really hope it'll be out soon.




I found this interesting blog: The owner is a 20++ year old girl, and she draws anime really nice and uses copic markers really good!! :D Her drawing really has this calming, quiet effect. She is my role model~~ Haha. Check it out. Hereee

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Sick
Oh my goodness. I caught a fever yesterday, and I feel dizzy most of the time.



Hope I get well soon T^T Will update as soon as I'm well!!

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The freakish feeling when...
WHEN YOU FIND OUT SOMEONE LIKES YOU.



I think something is wrong with me.. whenever a guy says he likes me I really start to hyperventilate and freak out. Yes. Literally -_-;;

I think most girls would be like this?




But this is always my reaction:




And then soon after:









Why do I always feel this way? Just now a guy who is one year older than me from my school asked me some questions that suggested that he liked me







Nooooooooo... T^T Looks like I'll have to reject another one -_-



Here's today's song:




It's really cute, right? One of my fave Rin songs. Tsundere!


Romaji lyrics:

yannacchau koto bakka atashi o socchi no kede
anna ko to acchi no ki HONTO ni mou fuzaketeru wa

nakaba gouin ni oshiitte CHOKKAI dashite hannou mite
aa yappa kawaii yo...konna ni horeta no ne...

tsukutta aikyou mo kawaii to omoeru hodo
juushou ne, wakatteru wa demo HONTO nikumenai no

kimi no RIAKUSHON o tada tanni nagametakute
kou yatte nankai mo ijitte shimaundesu

koi tte IYA ne kimi-iro ni somatteku
atashi ga konna ni tsukushiteru no ni

KIRAI ni natte kurechatta hou ga mou sukoshi wa kiraku ni nareru kamo ne
tada daisuki na kono egao toka mirenai no o GAMAN suru dakeda mon

amaenbo toka yo ni iu kawaii ko toka mou sonna no honshitsu ue narenai kara
SADISUTIKKU ni motto motto motto owari nante HANA karanai wa

atashi ni kyoumi nante nai koto kurai shitteru wa

demo chotto matte nanna no sono emi PUREZENTO moratte naku atashi no sei...
ii kagen ni shite yo kono BAKA BAKA BAKA BAKA BAKA tonda kanchigai shichatteta ja nai

atashi ga S de anta ga M de nante iu kouzou o hitei suru no ne
SADISUTIKKU na ippoutsuukou doushi demo korekara mo yoroshiku onegai suru wa

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Updates on my real life and other stuffs ♥
Hi hi. It's been a while, hasn't it? Hahahaha. Okayy. Yay. Let's blog shall we? :DDD



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.................







..... I AM SO SAD. I AM CONFUSED.



Gahhh. I have a really good friend who is a guy, and we're pretty close. He came this year to my school. So anyway. My friend thought that I liked him, which wasn't true (though she didn't believe it) We were just good friends. And then she had to go and ask him if he liked me (as she thought maybe if not me, then he likes me) -______- Oh my goodness. What is this? Now he is avoiding me and not talking to me(I don't know why). I lost a frienddd and not just anyone but a really nice and funny one




Uwahhh.... Sniff sniff...



Yeah this was how I felt a while ago when it happened.. now I'm a bit more calmer..


And confused. -_-;;



Arghhhhhhhhhhh what do I do??!!! I don't know if he likes me (as a friend or whatever) or if he dislikes me now. What to do? What to do?!

*Feels like crying*

I'm not really keen on love ever since 2 years ago -_- I decided not to like anyone again. And I rejected all the people who asked me out so far. But I don't know about him..


Hmmmm. He is a lot different than other guys, I guess. But what I always wondered was, what is the point of relationships in high school? I mean, it's not like we're going to end up marrying, right...? Take a friend of mine, for example. She's been in a relationship for 3 years now, and she's definitely going to be broken once we all go our own ways -_-;;


So.. yeah. Today I felt like listening to this song:




It's K-pop. I'm a korean so I like K-pop hee hee :DDD



[CL]
You really suck
I have no reason to see you
This world is filled with guys like you
You s-s-suck
Your flaws are countless
To just put up with it and love you
Is a waste of time
Hate you eh eh eh eh eh
I’m fine living without you
Hate you eh eh eh eh eh
I’m fine living without you
[MINJI]
My memories with you
Consist only of memories waiting for you
No matter how much I put up with it, and put up with it, it wouldn’t end
I-I wanted to hear those words, “I love you”
Your unconcerned love
I grew tired of it
[BOM]
It feels terrible I threw all my pride away
I’m sad, is this all I’m worth?
I’m worried, now, of the four-letter word, LOVE
I’m scared, you’re hilarious
[CL]
You really suck
I have no reason to see you
This world is filled with guys like you
You s-s-suck
Your flaws are countless
To just put up with it and love you
Is a waste of time
Hate you eh eh eh eh eh
I’m fine living without you
Hate you eh eh eh eh eh
I’m fine living without you
[DARA]
Half the words coming out from your mouth are lies
No matter how many times you deceive me and deceive me, it wouldn’t end
Someday you, too
Will meet a girl like you
Once you feel the pain, you’ll know how I feel
Source: LYBIO.net
[BOM]
It feels terrible, there was never such thing as a hero
With a happy ending, Was I too naive like a fool?
It turned out for the better since now I figured you out
I’m going to leave, you really suck
[CL]
You really suck
I have no reason to see you
This world is filled with guys like you
You s-s-suck
Your flaws are countless
To just put up with it and love you
Is a waste of time
Hate you eh eh eh eh eh
I’m fine living without you
Hate you eh eh eh eh eh
I’m fine living without you
[MINJI]
I feel relieved,
[CL]
I feel so much better
[MINJI]
Down to the bone I’ve erased every last memory of you
[BOM]
I feel relieved
[DARA]
I feel so much better
[BOM]
Down to the bone I’ve erased every last memory of you
[CL]
You really suck
I have no reason to see you
This world is filled with guys like you
You s-s-suck
Your flaws are countless
To just put up with it and love you
Is a waste of time
Hate you eh eh eh eh eh
I’m fine living without you
Hate you eh eh eh eh eh
I’m fine living without you

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My recent trip to S i n g a p o r e ♥
(WARNING- Fangirl screaming below. If you wish to proceed though, please do. :) )






KYAHHHH.

OH MY GOD

KYAHHHHHHHHHHH


Okay, I didn't announce it, but I went to Singapore for a four day trip. I went last Thursday.

When I was in the plane, I looked down on Singapore and I was like "WOAH. So clean!! And the trees and grass are all perfectly manicured..." Yeah. Singapore is one clean, developed country. That wasn't my first time going to Singapore, though. I went a few years before too. But back then I was young, so I just didn't appreciate things. Haha.


Okay. The big news is that I BOUGHT THE VAMPIRE KNIGHT OFFICIAL FANBOOK AND ARTBOOK!!!!!!!!!!!! KYAAAAA




 This is the fanbook. It contains lotsa information about the characters, uniform, Cross academy, and etc.





This is the official artbook. I bought it at the Kinokuniya bookstore at Takashimaya S.C at Orchardroad. Cause my mom and dad had to buy some stuff there, I immediately looked for a bookstore on the floor plans of the shopping mall. AND THERE~~~ THERE WAS A BOOKSTORE!!!! That was the day that I was going to leave, so I knew I had to HURRY if I wanted to see some drooling manga stuffs before I returned to my boring, no anime/manga-things town.


I walked into the bookstore, feeling sort of disappointed when I saw how small it was, but the truth was,...



IT WAS A FREAKINGLY HUUUUUUUUGE BOOKSTORE.


I mean like seriously. It was REALLY ENORMOUS.


As I showed my dad what I wanted to buy him to buy for me, I saw his expression at the price. Even though the art book had a 25% discount, overall the price was quite expensive. But he still bought it for me!! I felt guilty as he handed over his credit card reluctantly,.. but still. A fangirl has got to get some stuff. And they don't sell any of those stuff back at where I live now.


My mom also bought my little brother a box of Lego. She said it was his christmas presant, so I guess i can think of mine as a christmas presant too. I felt touched as I watched the books go into the plastic wrapper and watch it being handed to me. Hahaha. I'm going to cherish that book till I die!!!!!!!!!!

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S c h o o l H o l i d a y
It's the start of our school holiday~. Now I have more than a month to laze around, fangirl, read manga, draw manga and watch anime!!

... But in reality, my mom wants me to study my brains out. Like seriously. She says I have to get ready for next year or something!! GAHH. Can you believe it??!! In my mind, I was like




and




I want some free time too, you know!! Do you know what happens when I sit in front of my desk and open a math book in front of me?





YES. A yawn automatically comes along. Oh well. Everyone have a nice holiday~.

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School is O V E R
Wahh.. School is over now.. Today was the last day of my school. I felt really sad that it was already the end. I'M GETTING OLD!!! KYA. Time really passes fast. But now is only the beginning. It's not the end yet.. I must be optimistic!! A half-full cup not a half-empty cup!!




Must be happy...

Must be cheerful..!!

See, actually, the thing is happy, cheerful and optimistic is how people actually see me. All my friends think most of the time I can't get angry and that I'm always happy.. I get's that's how I am. Even if I feel crappy inside, I still put on a facade. I still put on a smile.



My cousin, who has been living with me for around six years is going back to her home country later. I was really sad when I heard the news. She's practically like a sister to me. Now I regret that I was mean to her. I was greedy and selfish. :(

I wrote her a letter. I'll see her once a year so it's okay :) Although I will be lonely with my annoying little brother.

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E X A M S
Everyone:

The reason why I have not been posting is because I'm having my final exams. >  < It's almost the end of year 8~~~.







Haahhh. I have to study hard... :( Well then. See you after my exams are over!! :)

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Happy birthday to me :)
Today is my birthday.
Am I supposed to feel happy..????
How come I don't feel anything?
Hmm.
Oh, well.
Happy Birthday to me~






Wait. Why am I doing this?


Am I talking to myself now?!

Sigh.

Oh well. I found another moving Supercell song sung by Nagi/Gazelle:






もしもはぐれたら、その時はちゃんと探してよ。
moshimo haguretara, sono toki wa chanto sagashiteyo.If I become separated from you, at that time, definitely come look for me.
この広い世界で二人まるで迷子みたいだね?
kono hiroi sekai de futari maru de maigo mitai da ne?In this wide world, it looks like the two of us seem lost, huh?

確かめるように抱きしめあって。
tashikameru you ni dakishimeatte.Just to make sure, we embrace each other.
キスをした何度も夜が明けるまで。
KISU wo shita nando mo yoru ga akeru made.Until the day breaks, we kissed so many times.
伝える言葉も知らないまま。
tsutaeru kotoba mo shiranai mama.I still don't know what words to say to you.
ただ君といたいそう思ったんだよ。
tada kimi to itai sou omottandayo.I just want to be with you, that's how I felt.

最後のときが来ても泣かないでちゃんと笑ってて。
saigo no toki ga kite mo nakanaide chanto warattete.Even if the last moments come, don't cry, be sure to smile.
悲しいのはイヤだからそうでしょうだって愛しているから。
kanashii no wa iya dakara. sou deshou datte aishite iru kara.I don't want you to be sad. That's because I love you, after all.

重ねる唇途切れないように、
kasaneru kuchibiru togirenaiyouni,So that our connected lips don't break apart,
もっと強く抱きしめて壊れそうなくらい。
motto tsuyoku dakishimete kowaresou na kurai.Embrace me tighter, like you're going to break me.
伝える言葉も知らないまま。
tsutaeru kotoba mo shiranai mama.
I still don't know what words to say to you.

ただ君といたいそう願ったんだよ。
tada kimi to itai, sou negattandayo.I just want to be with you, that's what I wished for.

一人寂しい時はその時は怒らないから。
hitori samishii toki wa sono toki wa okoranaikara.In times that I'm by myself and lonely, I won't be angry.
早く私のことは忘れて生きてゆけばいい。
hayaku watashi no koto wa wasureteikiteyukeba ii.It would be better if you hurry up and forget about me.
そう、約束をしよう。。。
sou, yakusoku wo shiyou...Yes, promise me...

Lyrics here

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Days in which you feel like lazing around..
Yaaawwn~... . Hmm, I'm here at Korea now, for my yearly visit. I go to Korea every once a year :3 . I'm at my relative's house now,(I stay at my relative's house every time I visit) blogging.

Hey, most of you guys probably already know this, but there's going to be a Hatsune Miku concert live in the US. It'll be held at this this year’s Anime Expo convention at the Nokia Theater in Los Angeles, California. I bet the Hatsune Miku fans would be screaming now, and counting down 'till the day... It's on the July 2nd. I'm fuming with jealousy... >:(
Cause it's not like I can purchase a ticket to L.A just to watch her; I'm only thirteen, think about what my parents will say ㅠㅅㅠ

Today's song: Chaining Intention

Choreography's fantastic~! MMD (LAT Miku) is used.
 





Romaji:
chizu wo nakushi tatazumu suisou
fuyu wo yurasu panorama
hora, kabe no ushiro ni
linoleum ga mutsumeru uso no kao
anagram ni tomadou, ima
yuki, shiro, kuro, dare, watashi

card wo kaeta space ni
sabita ken de kaita
code wa rule wo shiranai
kimi no omakage
moufu de tozashita yuuyami
orareta pen de kaita
kotoba wa mitsukerarenai yo
sora, shiro, kuro... demo

senaka awase tsutawaru ondo
yotsunoha no tameiki iro wo nose

White shine kogoeru keshiki wo
mukumori de somete
afureru mizuumi de
fureru tashika na mono
Sweet reach hitomi wo kasanete
synchro suru kara
anata no hi damari to
watashi, koko ni itanda ne

koyubi no ito saki wakarete mo
chirabaru houseki bin ni tsume

Why feel furueru karada wo
kimochi de musunde
saegiru kurayami to
tomoni dakishimeteite
Wish true hikari ga kagesae
terashi daseru nara
sekai wa inoranai
demo ne, dokoka itainda

White shine kogoeru keshiki wo
mukumori de somete
afureru mizuumi de
fureru tashika na mono
Sweet reach hitomi wo kasanete
synchro suru kara
anata no hi damari to
watashi, koko ni itanda ne

Sunlight kakedasu jikan no
soba de nemurasete
kanaderu teion ga kurumu chiisana haru
With "if" futari de tsunaide
ribbon wo suru kara
anata no hi damari to
watashi, koko ni itainda


English:

I had stopped at a water tank when I had lost my way
Winter shaking the whole panorama
See now, look behind the wall right there
Stare a while at the linoleum for a lying face
It's another confusing anagram, and now
Snowy, so white, so black, someone, maybe me

Turn in a card to get something of a space
Drawing up a rusted blade
I don't know the rules or the codes
All I see here is your face
Covered up in a dark twilight blanket
Breaking off the pen with which you write
Don't discover and with those words of
The sky, so white, so black... Although

The temperature we felt when our backs were touching
The sighs of the four leaf clover giving it it's colour

White shine, all around us the world's frozen
And we can dye it into warmth
The overflowing lake is then touched
With a bit of this honesty
Sweet reach, mine and your eyes meet once again
And because they then synchronize
Your sun then falls into silence, and
I end up staying in the same place, right here

The string on my finger is cut apart into two
The scattered gems are all gathered and then bottled up

Why feel someone's body while it's shaking
Our feelings are tied together
Take away all of the darkness when
We had then held onto each other
Wish true, just like all light has it's shadow
We make an illumination
This world doesn't hope anymore, but
Somewhere it's more than just that little thing

White shine, all around us the world's frozen
And we can dye it into warmth
The overflowing lake is then touched
With a bit of this honesty
Sweet reach, mine and your eyes meet once again
And because they then synchronize
Your sun then falls into silence, and
I end up staying in the same place, right here

Sunlight, whenever it begins to go
I'll keep sleeping on beside it
Play another sound that is so low
And keep it wrapped in a little spring
With "if" there is only our holding hands
And because we've a ribbon tied
Your sun then falls into silence, and
I end up staying in the same place, right here


  Lyrics from here.






























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